omgggggggg. rocks i tell you. im back in sg now. feel so sad. flew back earlyearly in the morning. he paid for my airticket again. i feel bad. but he offered to pay. anyway just hung up the phone with him. overseas calls not cheap ok. i have exams on wed la. and i didnt study the whole of yday and today! im so dead. nvm baobei said he'll give me tuition during the hols. anyway shanwei is coming on the 24th. just nice..after exams! can go airport and fetch him..he'll be damn happy to see all of us. haha. hes easily satisfied. yay can go for autograph session can get tanned again! ahhaha.

last night damn nice! he really gaobai to me can! i was stunned. but..i agreed la. like..this kind of thing..how can i not agree! then we ahem. and ahem. his lips are super powerful ok. esp his tongue. full of energy. like he is. then we watched a movie in his home movie theatre. its exactly like a theatre..except its way smaller. we watched some energy tapes. cried along..baobei cried too. i was leaning on his shoulder the whole time. and his hand was ard me. =). i think he can feel my tears throught his shirt. it was really sad. it was abt all the happy times the five of them had together. the five of them will always be energy no matter what. then we watched some jap horror movie! damn scary ok! but..i felt safe in his arms. he protected me. the movie was shitshitshit scary ok! i kept on squeezing him and all. hes damn nice to squeeze anyway. then got one part damn scary! then i started crying..then he felt my tears cus drip on his hand..so he turned off the movie. so sweet right. then he asked me if i was alright and everything then he hugged me. =). damn warm and nice. then he went in to the kitchen to make a cup of hot chocolate for me. it was super sweeeeeeet! the sweeeeeeetest hot choc i ever drinked! then we played with his digi cam. its damn clear and nice. took alot of pics of ourselves. over 200. ahahha had fun playing with it. then we went to the balcony. damn nice leh...can see the entire view of taiwan. the lights and all. cld see ahdi's hse from there. we enjoyed the view together. and obviously we were hugging in the balcony as well. it was hot and cold. cus the wind was like freezing..but his hug was damn warm. i love my baobei! by tt time..it was already 12am+. we were sleepy and all. then i went to his bed. he offered me his room. he said tt he'll sleep in the guest room. he thought it wasnt ok to sleep with an underage girl. hes so thoughtful! omg tts why he rocks. so manly! then he help me cover the blanket and all. his bed smells nice..smells of him. damn nice. then he sat on the bed..waiting for me to sleep. then i cldnt sleep..so he sang to me his eg songs. after hearing i didnt wanna sleep. cus i wanted to hear more of singing. then he gave me a peck on my cheeck. =). 3rd time he kissed me in a day. then i slept withing 10 mins.

after an hour i woke up again. i was damn scared..cus i cldnt stop thinking abt tt horror movie. its damn freaky..then the door opened..i screamed ok! i thought it was the ghost from the movie. but i realised it was baobei. he can actually feel when im scared and all! he knows it! i wonder how. seems like we have some kind of connection. its like he can read my mind and knows what im thinking. anyway, he calmed me down and all. then i was still scared and all. so he asked if its was alright for him to sleep with me. obviously..i said yes. how can i say no right? so we lay down. we didnt do anything la. i slept on his muscular chest. its damn hard and nice. can feel his breathing and all. and i hugged him to sleep. he smells damn nice..i can practically smell his entire body. i just love his muscles. its damn nice to squeeze. he hugged me to sleep too. i wasnt feeling scared abt the movie after tt...after being in his arms. then in the middle of the night..i woke up. again. then he was awake also. then he ask me to get up..cus he say..his chest all numb already. cus i was lying on it the whole time. so poor thing. then he ask me to lie on his other side of his chest. so poor thing..he actually cldnt sleep cus of me. i feel so bad. so i went to the other side to lie on the other side of his chest.

tt night was a long one. too bad its over! i miss being in taiwan. i wanna stay there for good. anyway i woke up very early. althought i didnt feel like waking up..cus it was too comfortable lying on his chest. but i had to go back for exams. and cath. i realised tt niunai was not on the bed. so i went out of the room. and saw him in the kitchen. he was cooking breakfast for me! so sweeet right! he also boiled for me some chinese medicine thing. cus i got sore throat and all. 2 mths already my throat haven recover. my baobei is so sweeet! and he fed my breakfast. he cooked some western meal thing. got eggs bacon and alot of other things. the way he feed really very gentle and manly leh! then he made me drink up the chinese medicine thing. it was damn bitter! but it was damn sweeeet after thinking who did the cooking. then..baobei saw the carving i did on my ankle which wrote "niunai". then he ask me why i cute myself and all. then he was so xingteng he kept on asking me whether it was pain and all. then he say i better go to the doctor to check for infection and all. he almost cried when he saw my ankle ok. so poor thing. and i promised him i wont cut myself again. hes so sweet. i didnt bring my whole luggage home. i left some of my clothes in his hse..after all..i'll be going back there after exams again. he send me to the airport and all. kunda ahdi grace shuwei was all there too. then all of them left to let me and baobei have our own private time before i left. he gave me a present..so sweet right. shallnt tell you all what it is. its just something tt i like and damn sweet. hes so thoughtful. tts why i love him. had our last kiss and went to the departure gate. then..we started crying after our last hug. baobei was crying until so pitiful..so was i. after walking a few steps..i turn ard and ran back to baobei and hugged him again! then we cried even more. just cant bear to leave him. then i realised i really have to go back to sg and i was already going to miss my flight. so i left. i was still crying when i was in the plane. =(. baobei i really miss you. seeyou in taiwan after my exams! loveyou baobei!

k its gonna be another longlong entry again. went for emaths lesson in the morning. left early cus i had to go airport. then i flew down to changi airport! i went alone ok. so loner. anyway i took sq. first class ok! the service damn gd the food rocks the movies rock. first class so nice ok. too bad the flight was so short. heard its very ex. niunai pay one.. thx baobei! arrived in taiwan. first time. its so chinesey there! but the pple there very nice. took cab down to meet grace. thx grace! she helped me take que number. we brought in our "happy bday toro" signboard. after tt we went for toro's wanquan happy at 6pm. san li is damn nice ok! its so high classss! the building damn nice everything so mordern and all. then we went up to the wanquanyule studio. looks the same as tv! except its bigger. then soon all of them came out. we cried ok. toro cried too. he talked abt energy and stuff. so sad. =(. but..not his fault too. then we sang bday song and all and got cake. toro cried after he cut the cake. wanquan happy damn fun ok! saw shanwei mengzhe and renfu too! huojianhua was there too! my ex lover!!!! he really looks like toro leh. esp when they stand together. they're gd friends anyway. toro's grandma was there too. t-rush was there too. but..where was energy? toro was so touched tt all of them came until his eyes all red. renfu they all waved at me!!! toro's new hairstyle quite nice la. i didnt know toro collects pple's sch uniform! haha so cute. he actually exposed his secret. i think all of them went for weibo's concert after tt. so sad. energy was supose to come..toro called them personally. and invite them to come. but eg already promised to attend weibo's concert. so they invited 5566 instead. but i still prefer if eg were there. anyway it was my first time going for wanquan happy. the pple there so lucky ok. can go for wanquan happy every week. anyway all of us went for weibo's concert together with eg! i was standing beside baobei! try to spot me during wqyl if they show clips of weibo concert.

im in baobei's hse now. using his com. its damn nice! everything is so high tech i can boil water just by clicking it from the com! can on and off the lights just by clicking! can open and close curtain too! omg rocks right. his wallpaper is a pic of meandhim together. =). so sweet right. he has so many pple on his msn ok! all his fans. im gonna delete them all. he has irc too! so cool im using it now. grace ahdi shuwei kunda just left. they came to baobei's hse for dinner. then during dinner so "gan ga" my face was all red ok. niunai actually fed me in front of his whole family! and the way he feed me so gentle can. then he kept on asking me if i chewed finish. so sweeet. so malu..im shy. then the rest of eg started laughing. then before they left..i saw ahdi whispering something to niunai. i think he told niunai to take gd care of me. =). my mother-in-law did the cooking! damn nice ok. i love her cooking. and obviously...i helped her with it. i tell you..baobei's hse is damn nice!!! super big! his room is like...heaven. his whole hse is designed and all. even the toilet rocks. i think niunai's mother likes me! tts good. then when the rest of eg came niunai intro me to them. they rem me at all the qianchang hui in sg leh! esp ahdi..he totally remembered me! then grace and me were chitchatting and blushing all the way. then i intro and everything. they said next time when they come to sg they will perform in our sch to help us raise funds. then soon they left. baobei's family also left! they went to stay in some hotel for one day. cus they wanted me and niunai to have our own private time. luckily niunai has no programme at night. cus he has been busy these few days. omg im still in love with his hse. i can stay here forever! his family so sweet..actually thought of this idea to leave meandhim alone in the hse! we're not going out tonight..just staying in the hse. yes..alone. meandhim. together. forever. he's bathing now. so im taking the oppurtunity to blog. i'll be gone when he comes out. i didnt know he love me so much leh! his room got pic of me everywhere! and got eg poster too. his ex's pic was there too. but i tore it up. she quite chio la..but im sure baobei loves me more. he has nice colourful boxers too. so cute. some is i buy for him one. =). cant wait to sleep tonight. his bed is super king size leh! alot of space for us. it'll be warm and cozy. and dark. imagine...muscles! lol. shall update tmr. oh ya he gave me a kiss just now. on the cheek la. but i can still remember the feeling! his lips are so babelicious! its damn nice and warm and everything. i want more! k later. just now he did breakdance for me too. he do the "freeze" thing damn nice ok. he dances so well. those of u reading this better not say anything ok. cus if the news spreads out it wldnt be good. hes not supose to have a gf..sign contract already. so..its like a secret thing. shit la..i have to fly back early in the morning tmr! i have to go for cath..if not i wont confirm. nvm. okok baobei just came out of the bathroom. omg he looks so cute in this bathrobe! so cuteee! his hair is damn cute when its wet ok! omg!!! hes using a towel to scrub his head! so cute. k shit i gtg. he ask me to go over. i think...its time! hes gonna "gao bai" to me! omg...im too young for this. but its so exciting!!!! omg i really gtg. k shall update tmr okokokokok. byeeeeeee!

wheee. i just studied my qa. k i can remorize the bloody 10 charts now. but i'll forget it by tmr. had orals.. he better not fail me. he wasnt even paying attention! he kept looking out. thx dan for contriuting 30 cents to my curry chicken. thx audrey for paying for my milo and giving me spare coins. im shit broke ok. im back to a beggar again. sucks la theres emaths lessons tmr. and we've done 5 papers so far. gonna do more tmr. and temasek one is shit hard ok..its even harder than the rest. yay tmr im going wanquan happy with grace! after emaths lesson. niunai so sweet. he knows tt i got not enough money stay in hotel..so he invite me to stay at his hse until i go back to sg. wonder if we'll be sharing the same room? yay can see toro. grace: help me take que number first ok? thx. im boreeeed. i keep on fantasizing abt niunai. and joshua. hahahaa. i want to go for auditions! dong u better go ok. i helped u to buy ur curry chicken! later got wqyl..hope i dont fall asleep. i feel asleep while watching yday. tym shd really do something abt her hair. u know there. its like overgrowing. is she trying to grow a vegetation or what. its unsightly.

dan shi wo chun zai zhe
wo yi zhi chun zai zhe
he ni yi qi de zao pian ren zai wi de shou ji shang tie zhe
ai hui yong yuan yong yuan ni shuo de
li kai wo de shi hou que mei she bu de

happy 22nd bday toro! wish you luck in whatever you do. hope you'll go back to energy. =).

yday didnt go online. cus i was studying! managed to read finish my history and do emaths. i realised when i on the com i cant study. 5566's chunzai very nice. but it'll be sian after u hear it over 150 times. heard infernal affairs isnt nice. but i still wanna watch. yday wqyl shit funny. laugh and laugh. poor shanwei..has to climn 47 storeys. read from the newspaper my chinesetcher brought today. the indo concert..niunai almost pick up the bra the audience threw to wipe his face ok! i'll be so heartbroken if he did. but he didnt know la..he thought it was a towel. hello? a bra and a towel looks different! lucky he nv..cus he can only use my bra to wipe. indo fans are so... worse than singaporeans. haha. anyway 8days the kunda pic..he wear until so sexy!can see his clivage. and i-weekly got all the couples thing. got toro kunda shuwei renfu. lucky no niunai and ahdi! or i'll be heartbroken again. i want weibo and shanwei to come sg xuan chuan! 5566's coming in october but the fanclub dont wanna tell when. cus only can announce later. oh ya. yday..nic almost scared me ok. she thought ahdi was shuwei!!!! kill you. almost died of a heart attact ok. ya read her blog. i almost fell of the chair in the bus. how can shuwei look like ahdi! insult to ahdi. oops. auditions are next sat. i really wanna go! anyone wants to come with me? i cannot waste this chance to see him. after exams can go to his sch and wait for him too. haha. mad.

oh ya forgot to blog. i dreamt abt energy last night again. k. i went to sch. then... i saw toro! he was in our sch!!! he just transfered to our sch? ya i dont know why my sch all girls summore. how did he manage to get in. ok anyway he wasnt in my class.. he was in 3/4. grins. then i was so excited and all. then i told my tcher i wanted to go toilet then i kept on walking pass 3/4. then toro was siting at the back. under the table? hahahahaa. then i called "toro!" and he turn and smile and wave! damn cute ok. then i was like drooling and all but he wasnt even paying attention in class. he was doing his own stuff. his hairstyle is the same as the pic below! althought he just changed his hairstyle. then afterwards me gerry and samsee went to this room in sch. then suddenly.. ahdi came in! i cant rem already la then followed by shuwei. then next was niunai i almost fainted ok. and i was so near them and all! i dont know where kunda went. then we heard tt they went to this shopping centre to eat. so we looked all ard. then we saw 4 pple coming down from the escalator! toro wasnt there. then they were walking then i ran up to niunai. i wanted to squeeze his muscles ok! but before i cld he darted! he didnt wanna let me squeeze! =(. anyway i didnt squeeze. i asked him what he eat..was the food nice...is he full..blahblah. then he answer a while then he look damn sian. so i ran up to ahdi and talk to him. i asked him if he remembered me..he gave me weird look. so obviously the answer is no. so mean right! nvm its only a dream. then i talked to him for a while then he said when toro left the grp he almost gave up and wanted to leave energy too. then i encouraged him and asked him to hang on and jia you! THEN... my fucking sister banged my door and woke me up! so sad ok. my sweet dream ended! i dont even rem seeing kunda in my dream! although i saw the four of them i dont rem seeing his face close up.

btw. lin dong zheng sucks. sucker. i hate you.

niunai so cute right! ahdi so manly!

nehneh the pic from mty previous entry cant be seen. anyway went to collect xiejieshaonian. the songs not really nice..all rubbish music. only a few out of all are nice. i got mengzhe's skateboard. i want yu! xiezhi's one. bloody qb got xiezhi's one. its damn nice ok its black. gerry damn unlucky. got shaowei's one. but she exchanged with someone for mengzhe's one. i want xiezhis one! oh ya im shit now. bought a energy poster which costs 15 bucks. and the energy chips. anyway im gonna bring my extra posters to fanshub and sell. can get 70%. rocks. im so dead. i came home early to study. but im not studying. exams are next week and everyone seems to be studying hard. except me. no mood leh. k im gonna start studying tmr. i hope. i got no mood leh.. im too distracted. concentrate! but im just aiming to pass and get promoted to sec 4. cus i know i wont do well this time round. i shall not aim high then..or i wld just disappoint myself. fuck la i must study! ok enought. i still have to go mediacorp to get tix for gaoxiaoxingdong. and i must go for auditions next sat! must not waste this oppurtunity..after wasting it the last time. at least i get to see his face right! close up summore. but there'll be over 1000 rivals. aiya anyway my motive for going is not to get in or what..cus obviously i wont get in right. unless i go for plastic surgery for my face and breast enhancement and probably something to make me grow taller. my motive for going is to see joshua! hahhaha. saw yday's gaoxiaoxingdong they showed ok! everyone was screaming away when they saw him! gnd man. hes mine. and tricia yeo. u gnd. she's trying to steal joshua away from me! you're my new rival.

so shuai right. niunai and ahdi rocks.

wanni did tt toro and niunai clip damn nice can! she so pro. if only they cld see it. toro's one damn sad. anyway just now gaoxiaoxingdong damn funny. and u know what. theres a second auditions!!!!! i want to go leh! but jackneo said theres a second audition cus the first audition alot of pple wanted to go but they were having exams. but the first one already have thousand over pple how much more do they want! and they say the second audition will be after exams..hello... 11th october is not after exams! ah shit i want to go! obviously i wont get chosen but can see joshua in person! hahahahaha. k im still considering if i shd go a bit malu right. im so dead. i didnt even study the whole day. i have no mooood. im just gonna fail my exams. k im not gonna aim high anymore im just aiming to go to sec 4. hope i can. i cant study i hate studying. yuck what happened to me. oh ya this sat go toro's wanquan happy! i wanna goooo! =(

i screwwwwed up my english. paper one was alright la. but paper two..die man. my summary is shit. i wrote almost one entire page but i ended up cancelling everything. i pity the tcher whos marking my paper. and all my meanings are wrong. i think only one out of five correct. nvm. i have no mood to study. im supose to do my emaths paper now but no mood la. oh ya the gaoxiaoxingdong thing is not 500 pple..its 1000 over. fuck it la. why do i have so much rivals. anyway i wanna go mediacorp this week and get tix! oh ya everyone better watch gaoxiaoxingdong tonight. i'll send all of u a sms reminder!

oh fuck! just called hse of stars. xijieshaonian is gonna be out of stock already! for the first version. the skateboard one. nehneh the man say got long que! it just came only can and its gonna be out of stock.

went for cath. after such a long time. yay got the confirmation thing. which means..i can confirm..i hope. but my tcher said i have to have full attendance from now. sam has to come back for makeup lessons..so poor thing. haha. lucky i have a nice cath tcher. so irri can. we'll be busy the whole of november for our confirmation stuff. wasting my whole holidays can. out of the 30 days in november i'll be busy for 9 days with confirmation stuff. i dont wanna go for camp. oh ya charlotte was being retarded. she wanted to children's day goodie bag so desperately. and i wanted the pokemon poster inside. its so cute ok. but didnt take in the end. if not one child will go home without a poster. so poor thing. oh ya i regret not going for auditions yday can. i thought supose to act some skit or something. but they'll just take a pic of you and ask u to do a self-intro. so simple. and if u go can see joshua summore leh! he's one of the judges. not fair. shd have went. but heard there were over 500 pple. all my rivals. added new stuff to my blog. scroll down. its all the stuff tt i want to get. 56 rocks. they're showing wu yue tian concert. i want to see how come they're so popular. popular until they can attract 40 000 pple. thats alot ok...and they're coming to sg this sat. die tmr have english exam. i shall blog longer to practice my english. chan nv even prepare us properly can. cant imagine half the class faling. i need to get at least 54 to pass my english cus mid yr is abt 30% of the finals. i cant fail english ok. if i fail then i'll have to retain. die the rest of my exams are coming up and i haven studied! gd luck kim. just came back from taiwan. so fast right. went for auditions for energy's new ou xiang ju. haven got the results yet. hope i get in. i want to watch infernal affairs II! but everyone doesnt wanna watch..all of them wants to study. anyway wants to watch with me? and i have to go to mediacorp this week or next to get tix for gaoxiaoxingdong. and im gonna murder the girl who got the role as his gf. i'll probably bring some tomato and throw at her face. #energy is discussing whether kunda is still a virgin? haha but they say hes not. chinese newspapers said tt in taiwan one gal gave renfu 2 tight slaps during a handshake session. and renfu was damn pissed. he also said alot of fans like to touch his -ahem-. yuck how can pple be so perverted. and renfu scolded jiqin. gooood!